Sunday, August 9, 2009
don't get me wrong...
... I'm proud to be Filipino and I love my fellow Filipinos. But that doesn't mean that I have to root for them every single time or care what happens to them.
1. I know that an ex-president of the Philippines died recently. Is it wrong that I wasn't mourning at her death? I just said "Rest In Peace" and got over it. I didn't dwell into it or anything. I did a report on the woman in 4th grade (I think it was 4th) and that's the extent of my knowledge of her, in addition to the stories my parents told me. I know she did a lot for our country but I didn't really dwell into her death. What's done is done. RIP Cory.
2. Ok... so what if FR3SH was on America's Best Dance Crew? They suck. I never liked them. They never caught my attention. Their routines bore me. I'm happy they got eliminated. Just cause they're Filipino, like myself, doesn't mean I have to like them. First season: JabbaWockeeZ. I loved them! .... and not just cause some of them were my fellow Filipinos. Second season: I forgot who won but I think they were Filipino... IDK. I didn't care much for that season. ICK. Third season: Quest Crew. I love them! I've been a huge fan of Ryan Conferido's since he was on SYTYCD. Same with "D-Trix" Sandoval. And not just cause they're Filipino... but because I was attracted to them and how they danced. They're effin good, damn it!
Sorry but this is what I think. POINT BLANK!
1. I know that an ex-president of the Philippines died recently. Is it wrong that I wasn't mourning at her death? I just said "Rest In Peace" and got over it. I didn't dwell into it or anything. I did a report on the woman in 4th grade (I think it was 4th) and that's the extent of my knowledge of her, in addition to the stories my parents told me. I know she did a lot for our country but I didn't really dwell into her death. What's done is done. RIP Cory.
2. Ok... so what if FR3SH was on America's Best Dance Crew? They suck. I never liked them. They never caught my attention. Their routines bore me. I'm happy they got eliminated. Just cause they're Filipino, like myself, doesn't mean I have to like them. First season: JabbaWockeeZ. I loved them! .... and not just cause some of them were my fellow Filipinos. Second season: I forgot who won but I think they were Filipino... IDK. I didn't care much for that season. ICK. Third season: Quest Crew. I love them! I've been a huge fan of Ryan Conferido's since he was on SYTYCD. Same with "D-Trix" Sandoval. And not just cause they're Filipino... but because I was attracted to them and how they danced. They're effin good, damn it!
Sorry but this is what I think. POINT BLANK!
Saturday, July 25, 2009
bleh.
I know what I want.
He knows what he wants.
I know what I want,
But it’s not what he wants.
I DEFINITELY know what I want.
He is confused about what he wants.
^ STORY OF MY LIFE. Like Richard said in the past, “I’ll be happier when fate lends me a helping hand with love.”
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
IDK.
I don't know you that much.
I don't know how to feel about you.
I don't know if I like you in that sense.
I do know that I enjoy endless IMing with you.
I do know that I enjoy poking you on Facebook.
I do know that I worry about you.
I do know that I want to get to know more about you.
I do know that your taste in music is ah-may-zing.
I do know that you make me smile.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
good day.
I started work again today. The brokeness will be gone soon :) I almost thought my work study job wouldn't hire me back for the summer. Yet, they did. SO I'M HAPPY!!!
When I got home, I got to tell my mom my good news and she was happy... I think. We didn't fight today. I guess that's good, right?
I was IMing one of my best friends, Monica, tonight. She made me laugh my ass off!!
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:25:02 PM): u kno those people in _ _ _
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:25:14 PM): deii make me miss my frends on planet earth
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:26:08 PM): i dont kno wat fuckin planet deii came from shittt
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:28:57 PM): deiill laser gun meee
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:30:20 PM): i dont wanna die in another planet
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:33:40 PM): im proud to be human
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:35:52 PM): deir not green.. deii got orange tan
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:36:07 PM): i like it.. its different color from alienss
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:36:31 PM): orange is the new black
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:36:44 PM): aliens: go green!
I love her :) She made my day... at least until someone I've had my eyes on changed that... well he made it a tad better. ;)
I don't know what to think about this:
terry b3rry (9:40:47 PM): *poke*
emmanuelx622 (9:41:01 PM): hi
terry b3rry (9:41:09 PM): LOL
terry b3rry (9:41:11 PM): what's up?
emmanuelx622 (9:41:18 PM): intoxicated
terry b3rry (9:41:23 PM): oh God
terry b3rry (9:41:31 PM): didn't even ask me if I wanted some?
terry b3rry (9:41:32 PM): :(
emmanuelx622 (9:41:57 PM): lol sorry
terry b3rry (9:42:05 PM): jk
emmanuelx622 (9:42:11 PM): no you're not
terry b3rry (9:42:20 PM): you're right -_-
emmanuelx622 (9:42:25 PM): ahahahaha
terry b3rry (9:44:42 PM): ;)
emmanuelx622 (9:45:16 PM): lol
emmanuelx622 (9:45:23 PM): you're so cute
terry b3rry (9:45:33 PM): thank you :D
terry b3rry (9:45:42 PM): you're not so bad yourself
emmanuelx622 (9:45:53 PM): we should go on a date ;]
terry b3rry (9:45:59 PM): ok.....
emmanuelx622 (9:46:04 PM): movies?
terry b3rry (9:46:33 PM): sure
terry b3rry (9:46:35 PM): when?
emmanuelx622 (9:46:46 PM): you pick
emmanuelx622 (9:46:49 PM): when you're free
terry b3rry (9:47:13 PM): umm... I only have work on Mon - Thurs...
terry b3rry (9:47:17 PM): I'm free every Friday
terry b3rry (9:47:27 PM): or THursdays after 4
emmanuelx622 (9:47:39 PM): next friday =D
terry b3rry (9:47:54 PM): you're drunk... are you going to remember this?
emmanuelx622 (9:48:02 PM): yes
terry b3rry (9:48:07 PM): okie dokie
emmanuelx622 (9:48:12 PM): LOL
terry b3rry (9:49:13 PM): teehee
terry b3rry (9:50:25 PM): are you OK?
emmanuelx622 (9:50:35 PM): yes
emmanuelx622 (9:50:39 PM): im great
terry b3rry (9:50:44 PM): i'm sure you are ;)
He said I was so cute and asked me out on a date.I don't know. Maybe it's cause he's drunk, but people are more honest when they're drunk, right? At least my dad was really honest when he was drunk.....
I honestly don't know what to think about this...
I mean, I like him but he's not my type... but only cause 1. he smokes and I'm allergic and 2. he's not Filipino. I'd rather date a Filipino. I don't mean to be racist or anything. I don't know. Maybe I feel like a man of a race similar to mine could understand me better. My 1st ex was Ecuadorian. He didn't understand me much and he didn't understand the way my family runs at all. My 2nd ex was Filipino and it was easy for him to empathize with everything I had going on.
When I got home, I got to tell my mom my good news and she was happy... I think. We didn't fight today. I guess that's good, right?
I was IMing one of my best friends, Monica, tonight. She made me laugh my ass off!!
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:25:02 PM): u kno those people in _ _ _
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:25:14 PM): deii make me miss my frends on planet earth
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:26:08 PM): i dont kno wat fuckin planet deii came from shittt
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:28:57 PM): deiill laser gun meee
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:30:20 PM): i dont wanna die in another planet
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:33:40 PM): im proud to be human
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:35:52 PM): deir not green.. deii got orange tan
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:36:07 PM): i like it.. its different color from alienss
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:36:31 PM): orange is the new black
brwnsgrmacchiato (9:36:44 PM): aliens: go green!
I love her :) She made my day... at least until someone I've had my eyes on changed that... well he made it a tad better. ;)
I don't know what to think about this:
terry b3rry (9:40:47 PM): *poke*
emmanuelx622 (9:41:01 PM): hi
terry b3rry (9:41:09 PM): LOL
terry b3rry (9:41:11 PM): what's up?
emmanuelx622 (9:41:18 PM): intoxicated
terry b3rry (9:41:23 PM): oh God
terry b3rry (9:41:31 PM): didn't even ask me if I wanted some?
terry b3rry (9:41:32 PM): :(
emmanuelx622 (9:41:57 PM): lol sorry
terry b3rry (9:42:05 PM): jk
emmanuelx622 (9:42:11 PM): no you're not
terry b3rry (9:42:20 PM): you're right -_-
emmanuelx622 (9:42:25 PM): ahahahaha
terry b3rry (9:44:42 PM): ;)
emmanuelx622 (9:45:16 PM): lol
emmanuelx622 (9:45:23 PM): you're so cute
terry b3rry (9:45:33 PM): thank you :D
terry b3rry (9:45:42 PM): you're not so bad yourself
emmanuelx622 (9:45:53 PM): we should go on a date ;]
terry b3rry (9:45:59 PM): ok.....
emmanuelx622 (9:46:04 PM): movies?
terry b3rry (9:46:33 PM): sure
terry b3rry (9:46:35 PM): when?
emmanuelx622 (9:46:46 PM): you pick
emmanuelx622 (9:46:49 PM): when you're free
terry b3rry (9:47:13 PM): umm... I only have work on Mon - Thurs...
terry b3rry (9:47:17 PM): I'm free every Friday
terry b3rry (9:47:27 PM): or THursdays after 4
emmanuelx622 (9:47:39 PM): next friday =D
terry b3rry (9:47:54 PM): you're drunk... are you going to remember this?
emmanuelx622 (9:48:02 PM): yes
terry b3rry (9:48:07 PM): okie dokie
emmanuelx622 (9:48:12 PM): LOL
terry b3rry (9:49:13 PM): teehee
terry b3rry (9:50:25 PM): are you OK?
emmanuelx622 (9:50:35 PM): yes
emmanuelx622 (9:50:39 PM): im great
terry b3rry (9:50:44 PM): i'm sure you are ;)
He said I was so cute and asked me out on a date.I don't know. Maybe it's cause he's drunk, but people are more honest when they're drunk, right? At least my dad was really honest when he was drunk.....
I honestly don't know what to think about this...
I mean, I like him but he's not my type... but only cause 1. he smokes and I'm allergic and 2. he's not Filipino. I'd rather date a Filipino. I don't mean to be racist or anything. I don't know. Maybe I feel like a man of a race similar to mine could understand me better. My 1st ex was Ecuadorian. He didn't understand me much and he didn't understand the way my family runs at all. My 2nd ex was Filipino and it was easy for him to empathize with everything I had going on.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
FUCKED UP. PISSED OFF.
:'( THIS MOTHER FUCKING BULLSHIT IS PISSING ME THE FUCK OFF!!! I'M SICK AND TIRED OF THIS SHIT. EVERY TIME I FIND HAPPINESS, SOMETHING OR SOMEONE MANAGES TO TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME. I'M FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF THIS.
MY HAPPINESS HAS BEEN COMING AT RANDOM TIMES. I WAS HAPPY EARLIER. WHENEVER I ACT HAPPY LATELY, MY MOM ALWAYS ASKS ME WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME. WHAT THE FUCK?! CAN'T I BE HAPPY?! CAN'T I ACT HAPPY?! IF I'M HAPPY, THEN THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME?! WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT SHIT?! CAN'T I BE HAPPY WITHOUT SOMEONE THINKING THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME?!?! WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!?!
MY HAPPINESS HAS BEEN COMING AT RANDOM TIMES. I WAS HAPPY EARLIER. WHENEVER I ACT HAPPY LATELY, MY MOM ALWAYS ASKS ME WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME. WHAT THE FUCK?! CAN'T I BE HAPPY?! CAN'T I ACT HAPPY?! IF I'M HAPPY, THEN THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME?! WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT SHIT?! CAN'T I BE HAPPY WITHOUT SOMEONE THINKING THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME?!?! WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!?!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
la di da ^_^
I haven't blogged in a while so here it goes....
What I've been up to:
1. I've been torrenting music like crazy. I need a new iPod cause of it. My iPod's so full of music that I had to take out some songs and my photos to fit everything. At least I didn't buy this iPod so when I finally buy one with more space, I won't mind.
2. Life's boring as usual. Nothing exciting has happened. I did get stood up again. It's alright... I'm used to it. At least he finally manned up yesterday and apologized to me.
terry b3rry (7:37:02 PM): btw, thanks for standing me up
emmanuelx622 (7:43:06 PM): thats what i wanted to talk to you about, i wanted to apologize to you about it.
terry b3rry (7:43:18 PM): why'd you do it?
terry b3rry (7:43:27 PM): i was waiting all afternoon
emmanuelx622 (7:50:03 PM): i was playing tennis & i didn't realize the time and i tried to call you but you never answered. and then i seen the things you wrote on twitter to mark and i felt weird to talk to you until now.
emmanuelx622 (8:18:51 PM): yeah :[ im sorry
terry b3rry (8:19:29 PM): if you're really sorry, why did it take you this long to tell me?
emmanuelx622 (8:21:19 PM): i told you already
emmanuelx622 (8:21:31 PM): i felt really bad cuz of all the things you said about me
terry b3rry (8:21:39 PM): you should
terry b3rry (8:21:46 PM): cause i was hurt
terry b3rry (9:14:59 PM): so....
emmanuelx622 (9:15:09 PM): sooo
emmanuelx622 (9:15:11 PM): forgive me?
terry b3rry (9:15:25 PM): why should I forgive you?
emmanuelx622 (9:16:09 PM): so we can be friends
terry b3rry (9:20:59 PM): hmmm....
terry b3rry (9:21:03 PM): well....
emmanuelx622 (9:21:22 PM): well?
terry b3rry (9:21:26 PM): fine
emmanuelx622 (9:21:49 PM): fine?
emmanuelx622 (9:21:53 PM): you'll forgive me?
terry b3rry (9:21:57 PM): yesh
emmanuelx622 (9:22:39 PM): thanks
terry b3rry (9:22:52 PM): you better not screw up after this LOL
emmanuelx622 (9:24:02 PM): i wont
terry b3rry (9:24:42 PM): you better not
emmanuelx622 (9:25:03 PM): kk
I better not regret forgiving him.
That's been happening a lot lately. This guy who stood me up during fall semester, the same guy I met at orientation who ended up taking advantage of my feelings, said sorry about the way shit ended between us:
June 17, 2009:
terry b3rry (11:31:05 PM): and remember.. you stood me up once
MusasianHippie (11:32:27 PM): I didn't know how to handle it. You're not an easy person to say no to... But yeah I shouldn't have, I'm still sorry about that.
June 23, 2009:
MusasianHippie (11:14:32 PM): Not much for small talk nowadays eh
terry b3rry (11:14:45 PM): sorry
terry b3rry (11:14:54 PM): it still feels awkard talking to you
MusasianHippie (11:15:14 PM): Hey it's cool lol... Sorry to hear that, wish it wasn't
terry b3rry (11:15:36 PM): :)
MusasianHippie (11:16:08 PM): Just trying to be friendly
terry b3rry (11:16:38 PM): okie dokie
terry b3rry (11:16:41 PM): that's nice of you
MusasianHippie (11:17:53 PM): Well if it's any consolation, I wished I didn't screw up my friendship with you back then lol
3. My skin condition is starting to depress the crap out of me. I feel so insecure. If I could change my skin, I would. But, I'm trying to keep my life stress free so that my skin clears up. My mom says it's starting to clear up a little. She tries her best to comfort me when I get depressed about my skin and other things. I love her for that. I still need to make an appointment with my dermatologis though.
4. My dad managed to annoy the shit out of me this morning. Spending time with my mom is the only thing I look forward to nowadays. Spending time with my dad used to be great but nowadays it sucks cause he's acting like an immature jerk. If he wasn't my father and if I wasn't afraid to him, I'd scream at him. At least spending time with my mom is always nice :)
5. Today was a pretty good day. I did the laundry with my mom around H-Mart. Then when we got home, I decided to put my freshly laundered clothes away. This somehow lead to me re-organizing my closet. I discovered that I can fit into my old shorts and pants now! Yay for losing 15 lbs! I fit back into all of my size 5 shorts, a pair of kids size 16 shorts, a pair of capris that I stopped wearing cause they were too tight, and a pair of GAP kids jeans sized at kids size 14. I was amazed. I have so much more clothes to wear now. :) Short shorts this summer, yes?
What I've been up to:
1. I've been torrenting music like crazy. I need a new iPod cause of it. My iPod's so full of music that I had to take out some songs and my photos to fit everything. At least I didn't buy this iPod so when I finally buy one with more space, I won't mind.
2. Life's boring as usual. Nothing exciting has happened. I did get stood up again. It's alright... I'm used to it. At least he finally manned up yesterday and apologized to me.
terry b3rry (7:37:02 PM): btw, thanks for standing me up
emmanuelx622 (7:43:06 PM): thats what i wanted to talk to you about, i wanted to apologize to you about it.
terry b3rry (7:43:18 PM): why'd you do it?
terry b3rry (7:43:27 PM): i was waiting all afternoon
emmanuelx622 (7:50:03 PM): i was playing tennis & i didn't realize the time and i tried to call you but you never answered. and then i seen the things you wrote on twitter to mark and i felt weird to talk to you until now.
emmanuelx622 (8:18:51 PM): yeah :[ im sorry
terry b3rry (8:19:29 PM): if you're really sorry, why did it take you this long to tell me?
emmanuelx622 (8:21:19 PM): i told you already
emmanuelx622 (8:21:31 PM): i felt really bad cuz of all the things you said about me
terry b3rry (8:21:39 PM): you should
terry b3rry (8:21:46 PM): cause i was hurt
terry b3rry (9:14:59 PM): so....
emmanuelx622 (9:15:09 PM): sooo
emmanuelx622 (9:15:11 PM): forgive me?
terry b3rry (9:15:25 PM): why should I forgive you?
emmanuelx622 (9:16:09 PM): so we can be friends
terry b3rry (9:20:59 PM): hmmm....
terry b3rry (9:21:03 PM): well....
emmanuelx622 (9:21:22 PM): well?
terry b3rry (9:21:26 PM): fine
emmanuelx622 (9:21:49 PM): fine?
emmanuelx622 (9:21:53 PM): you'll forgive me?
terry b3rry (9:21:57 PM): yesh
emmanuelx622 (9:22:39 PM): thanks
terry b3rry (9:22:52 PM): you better not screw up after this LOL
emmanuelx622 (9:24:02 PM): i wont
terry b3rry (9:24:42 PM): you better not
emmanuelx622 (9:25:03 PM): kk
I better not regret forgiving him.
That's been happening a lot lately. This guy who stood me up during fall semester, the same guy I met at orientation who ended up taking advantage of my feelings, said sorry about the way shit ended between us:
June 17, 2009:
terry b3rry (11:31:05 PM): and remember.. you stood me up once
MusasianHippie (11:32:27 PM): I didn't know how to handle it. You're not an easy person to say no to... But yeah I shouldn't have, I'm still sorry about that.
June 23, 2009:
MusasianHippie (11:14:32 PM): Not much for small talk nowadays eh
terry b3rry (11:14:45 PM): sorry
terry b3rry (11:14:54 PM): it still feels awkard talking to you
MusasianHippie (11:15:14 PM): Hey it's cool lol... Sorry to hear that, wish it wasn't
terry b3rry (11:15:36 PM): :)
MusasianHippie (11:16:08 PM): Just trying to be friendly
terry b3rry (11:16:38 PM): okie dokie
terry b3rry (11:16:41 PM): that's nice of you
MusasianHippie (11:17:53 PM): Well if it's any consolation, I wished I didn't screw up my friendship with you back then lol
3. My skin condition is starting to depress the crap out of me. I feel so insecure. If I could change my skin, I would. But, I'm trying to keep my life stress free so that my skin clears up. My mom says it's starting to clear up a little. She tries her best to comfort me when I get depressed about my skin and other things. I love her for that. I still need to make an appointment with my dermatologis though.
4. My dad managed to annoy the shit out of me this morning. Spending time with my mom is the only thing I look forward to nowadays. Spending time with my dad used to be great but nowadays it sucks cause he's acting like an immature jerk. If he wasn't my father and if I wasn't afraid to him, I'd scream at him. At least spending time with my mom is always nice :)
5. Today was a pretty good day. I did the laundry with my mom around H-Mart. Then when we got home, I decided to put my freshly laundered clothes away. This somehow lead to me re-organizing my closet. I discovered that I can fit into my old shorts and pants now! Yay for losing 15 lbs! I fit back into all of my size 5 shorts, a pair of kids size 16 shorts, a pair of capris that I stopped wearing cause they were too tight, and a pair of GAP kids jeans sized at kids size 14. I was amazed. I have so much more clothes to wear now. :) Short shorts this summer, yes?
I'm actually happy today... at least I think this is what happiness feels like :)
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