"there's a love in your arms that's waiting for me..."

To my true love:

"I was lost in a place no one wants to be

Trying hard to convince my heart to believe

You were there all along, I just couldn't see

That there's a love in Your arms that's waiting for me"

... of course I don't know who you are yet but I'm optimistic about finding out.

Last night's episode of "One Tree Hill" totally made me optimistic about finding the "one"... my true love... my soul mate ♥ What my friend Louis told me is true: finding love is all about trial and error. My freshman year in college was full of it!

From meeting a guy at orientation who ended up using me and being total jerk... to meeting a cocky guido that stood me up (HAHA KB chased him down)...to meeting and falling in love with a guy who I perceived to be my own personal "Edward Cullen"... to meeting and falling in like with a guy who I called my "Wall-E"...

IT HAS ALL BEEN ABOUT TRIAL AND ERROR. BUT I hope these trials and errors will cease once I find the guy who will love me for me - flaws, emotions and all. I'm totally optimistic about finding the guy who will love me wholeheartedly and unconditionally. When I find him, his love WILL NOT fade away.

Two quotes stick in my mind:

"There are two great days in your life. The first is the day you're born and the second is the day you find the person you are born for." - Louis Pascual

"whatever happens, it was meant to happen. always remember that. if things don't work out, it's only cause there's someone better waiting in the wings. if things DO work out, then he was the one waiting in the wings. :D" - Richard De Los Reyes

I love you forever for telling me that Richard! It's totally fueling my optimistic outlook on romance!

So yeah.... ARMAND. I spoke to him on the phone Saturday. Chyeah, that's not going to work out. WHY? Well....

1. He doesn't like the whole long distance thing.

2. He's "too happy for me" <-- basically he's saying I'm too emotional.

3. I'm optimistic about working it out. He's "optimistic about stopping it."

I mean WTF?!

1. He said that his mom didn't like the idea of him driving up to see me. He said he doesn't see the point if he can't see me often. He brought up the possibility of seeing me every two weeks which is fine with me but not with him.

2. Basically by him saying "I'm too happy for you" he means that he's a really happy person compared to little emotional me. He's basically saying that I'm too emotional and he's too happy. WTF DUDE?! You should know that girls are emotional! It comes with the package! In the words of my friend Matt: "Seriously, guys know that girls come with drama, it's just the way that girls are. so, if you're too emotional for him, he needs to switch his sexual orientation. He'll get this pretty much no matter what girl he's with... it's true, not to be sexist but girls definitely have a lot more drama going on then guys for the most part. Most of us have learned to deal with it, if he hasn't, he's dating the wrong gender lol."

3. He said he's optimistic about stopping what we have. That doesn't even make sense! I mean, you're optimistic about ending something?